The Inspiration

Sometimes it's hard to know what to write about, but you know that you have to write something. I would like to do better- it's some kind of therapy and life is so funny, sweet, sad and crazy.

As I began to write about something else entirely this week, a picture that I recently hung in my house caught my eye. It's from WWII, and it's a saying that was on the posters for the English citizens that they saw as they were headed to the bomb shelters. While this sounds morbid, I find it extremely motivational for the situation that I find myself currently in: "Keep Calm and Carry On."

I have discovered that I have learned something throughout this cancer and deployment journey. ANOTHER thing, if that can be believed. Sometimes panic is overrated. If we wait it out, and ride the tide, things settle down for themselves. Many times life throws the curve balls to us but then we try to see what WILL happen to fix it. I am learning to just wait and see how it will work out. This is a very hard lesson for me. I have always been one to try and predict things, fix them, have a plan....not lately.

I look back and so many things and so many doorways have opened unexpectedly on this journey. Had I panicked, and reacted- NOT stayed the course, that would never have been. I have at LEAST a dozen new friends that will be my friends forever now. My family is closer. My husband and I are more distant in proximity but closer in spirit. My initial reaction sometimes is still to scream and cry and throw a temper tantrum at my circumstances, instead of to look at where I am.

A bad diagnosis? Not feeling well? Haven't heard from my soldier? There is the wall- I look-

I just look at my poster and smile. "Keep Calm and Carry On." It's perfect. I'm glad I can look at that tomorrow. Things are different tomorrow.