Happy Mother's Day! Since 2000, when my own best friend (and mother) passed away, I have always passed this day in tears. Today I did the same. I felt a lot of sadness, but of a different nature. I sat and cried, and cried some more. I was diagnosed in the same month as she passed away, and there are other parallels as well. Today in my worst of the pain, I knew she was crying with me. It has been years since I have allowed myself to feel so close to her, but today I let it go and she was waiting. I am not religious in that way, but I know she is there somewhere. That was the best gift I could have for Mother's Day. Whatever energy she left behind she gave to me for this fight.
I will win it for her, for my younger sisters, and my three daughters. I guess I needed to be reminded of the TaeKwonDo spirit. My daughters gave me such a great day- an indoor picnic, hugs, cards, and all the support I could ask for while I am feeling so rough. I just hope I gave her that much while she was here. I can make it up to her by winning just in case, right? She IS watching, after all....
Here's to you Kathleen Ann, my Mamacita- you were the GREATEST of all mothers. I miss you every day. You tried to win, but between the two of us, we WILL win!
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